So you don’t know me, who I am
Then, I wonder if truly I know myself and the truth begins to stare at me in the face, pricking my heart with its piercing edges of reality
‘…you’re lost…”
no, I’m not’ (my spirit is troubled)’
yes you are’
The truth, they say will set you free, but this truth, I know, burdened my heart. It’s like a heavy weight on my malnourished spirit. Slowly, I stuttered, “I’m lost?”
So, the pitter patter of ‘my happy feet’ are the sounds of lost feet.
Quickly, I put my ears to the ground…the sounds of my feet do not harmonize…
I’m lost
Beneath the smiles and laughter, there’s a lot more. Should I let you into my world? It’s nothing like the beauty you see on the outside.
This beauty is a wretched wench, deep within-
I swear,
I curse,
I grope,
I struggle,
And then, I tear; I let it all out like a flow of river.
Suddenly, I see it…at first, it was a flickering light. I was transfixed…an apparition?
noooo…it’s a man, a man wearing a crown filled with floodlights. The earth stands still at his sight. MY GOD, I’M IN AWE.
He was there all along…I just didn’t see him, I was busy trying to clean my mess myself.
His presence pacifies my soul and the tranquility that envelopes me catapults me into a novel realm.
My eyes are clouded with tears and my wobbling voice mutters ‘father?’ ‘faaaaatheeeerrr’ ???
His outstretched arms welcomed me into a warm embrace. There and then, he tells me who I am and I strongly affirm ‘I AM A CHILD OF GOD’
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By Mayokun Adeleye
