AKILAH, frightened her whole life
Scared of what people would think
Scared of the comments people would make
Scared about the judgment people would pass
When they discover what’s going on in her life.
Come on Akilah,
Don’t give me that look,
It won’t hurt, I promise.
Whenever is said no,
These were the words he would say
And somehow, these alone would make me give in
I was only a child when all these started.
I just couldn’t voice out,
For some reasons which until now, I actually don’t understand.
These went on for years,
I never wanted it, but I couldn’t stop it either.
What I feared the most
Has finally happened.
Pregnant with his child.
The moment he learned about this,
He disappeared into thin air,
I never heard from him,
He never contacted me.
Words can’t explain how I feel.
I’m such a mess
He took my dignity,
He took my pride,
He took everything from me,
And then left.
The only option is have
Is to perform an abortion .
To kill this being growing inside me.
I don’t want to do this,
But I’ve got no choice.
I have no body to lean on.
They’ll condemn me once they find out.
Akilah is dead
She died during the abortion
She tried killing an innocent being and ended up killing herself too.
She was scared to open up to anyone.
She jumped into conclusion before giving it a try.
I’m a writer, and I draw sometimes. I’m
currently studying physiology in the college of medicine, University of Lagos.
Age: 18 (August 13th 1999)